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A normal person touched by deeds of kindness & hurt by malice. A qualified management graduate by education, i'm a Human Resources professional.I love to scribble my thoughts, giving it a way of expression in both the languages English & Hindi. Writing for me is a divine intervention and music heals my soul. Expressing yourself through the power of words is a beautiful feeling and the fervour takes you into another world of imagination.

Tuesday 20 December 2011

Falling in love with....

As he finally covered the last steps of the distance between us, closing in, my heart started pounding. For a moment he stared at me, brushing aside the strands of my hair that breeze was playing with, disconcerting him. He held my hand, as if he never wanted to let go of it, our fingers seemed to fit together in just the right way, effortlessly clasped like perfect complements. He leaned in closer and touched my lips with his, beneath a blanket of stars, where the only voice audible was of the waves, as we were standing close to a dune on a beach witnessing a peaceful night, surrounded by an ocean which was blackened with the natural effect of the alluring night. And then suddenly as the sun crested the sky, the dunes, the world alike with its magnanimous golden rays, I quite realized I had been dreaming and there came an end to a lovely dream, ‘coz of sun’s jealousy. Anyway, the morning itself was so pleasing that I decided to meander on the beach (decided to make the most of it as I was on the land of beaches – Goa). Trudging through the sand, I just couldn’t help feeling like an amateur who was probably searching for something, like a child would desperately search for seashells; of course even I quite enjoy that. When I tried to focus on the world around me, I just couldn’t keep my gaze off it – the sun risen out of the sea, the thrill of morning bird song, the lingering mist atop the waves, as if the glorifying morning was riveted in their beauty, only adding to it. Without any conscious thought, I tried to feel the sand beneath my feet and the cold breeze caressed my cheeks like it wanted to play with me. I was living a different world away from the crowd, amidst the beauty of nature, which gave me a serene feeling, & I fell in love with it instantly. The amazing morning, none of it & all of it felt real, more real than anything I’d known for years, as if I was meeting a new world with a new meaning.
After the morning walk, the wow feeling following it was difficult to hide. I wanted to spend my evening as well on the beach, as I just love sunsets. Sunset for me is like soothing my restless soul. It helps me in finding ways to fill the emptiness of my heart & answers I yearn to find my existence. The sight of the sun laying down making way for the night, leaving tinges of orange shade in the sky with the surrounding tranquility & sound of the waves splashing on the shore is just amazing. The horizon seems like a canvas of oil painting extending its hues to the world. And this was exactly what I experienced there. The moment I reached, I sat down on the beach, burying my hands in the sand, it felt so good. Then I scooped up a handful of sand & let it trickle through my fingers, chuckling, as if I was lost in my own world. As the sand sifted through the passage of my fingers, I felt like a child happy to play with sand, making different structures out of it. I took off my sandals & decided to walk on the surf, the wet sand trickling my bare feet & made me giggle like a kid. 

Walking down the beach, every now & then I stopped & bent over to retrieve seashells, which were half buried in the sand, washed over by the waves. After examining them in my hand, I tossed all of them back into the sea. The contentment of the entire thing was something I could feel within. As the evening slowly turned into night, the air just got cooler & I stood there watching the beach water blackened due to the night, still lights of clubs adjacent to the beach making it glitter. Stars twinkling in the sky and small lanterns (small parachute like lanterns are lit up in the night on the beach & are drifted towards the sky) all lit up in the sky gave the sky a dazzling look. As the zephyr chilled, I realized I was freezing, to the extent that tears rolled down my cheek, only to make me feel that I was alive, else I always thought I'd  become quite numb to everything. I felt like the breeze was caressing my cheeks & its love overflowed through my eyes making it wet. It was time for me to bid adieu to all the fun I'd with the beautiful nature & depart for the day.
After a peaceful time at the beach all day, I could feel my heart overjoyed with the day gone by & the things it witnessed, with a new perspective & more so the glory of the nature. And as I strode back to my hotel room, all I could feel was love abound, as if my heart was burning with love. The last thought on my mind, while I was covering the final steps towards my room was……"I'm falling in love, perhaps with the majestic beauty of the nature."
                           

Monday 12 December 2011

Those unspoken words…..

“Likhte rahe hain tumhe roz hi magar, khwaisho ke khat kabhi bheje hi nahi…
Anek lagake zara padhna woh chitthiya, aankhon ke paani mein rakhna woh chitthiya…”
Amazing lines from one of the famous songs, penned by the all time great poet and writer
Gulzarji. A beautiful thought, penned even more beautifully, giving an aura of emotions to the words written. Well the purpose of writing and reminding y’all of these lines is very clear (before I stray from the topic, let’s just stick to it), how many of us have done something like this in our lives…???? Isn’t that a question worth to ponder over??? I mean many of us must be having a book, or diary..or must have scribbled some good ol’ papers, lying in dust somewhere today…isn't it or probably nowadays people make good use of their computers and laptops and prefer to save all their work or pent up feelings (best option to keep it safe, unless you have a backup) in them. The gist of all this is, somewhere, sometime in life there must have been that day, where you must have felt extreme joy, pain, sadness or probably somewhere in between all these, which must have prodded you to pen something from your book of thoughts straight from the heart, sealed in the book like you keep your deepest darkest secret, & delivered to a place where nobody can actually catch hold of it, isn't it???? I’m sure most of us have done this. And I’m sure most of you would agree to this, when I say it quite puts your mind at peace when you write or scribble your feelings or best put as pent up feelings, that you just can’t seem to share with anyone else. It makes you feel relaxed and you churn out your thought process to pour it down on a piece of paper, exactly the way you feel.

Sometimes your true feelings are found in the words which you type or write, but never send. Probably we write things for someone, with all the love & seriousness only to keep it with ourselves as a memory. And when you look back, over these memories, you only cherish it, by remembering how you really felt at that time. And these feelings, thoughts or emotions become those unspoken words that back then, never actually found a way to your lips and got sealed forever in your diary or book of thoughts and more so in your heart. It never found expression in your spoken words, probably ‘coz you couldn't muster up the courage to express them & give them their due. But their presence in your written book, scribbled paper or diary keeps them alive forever with fragrance that fills your life with reminisces abound. So just check those papers, diary or book today where all your feelings, once found an expression, through words written, but could never be spoken!!!

This post is dedicated to all those people who share my thoughts and have something like this to their credit, where their feelings once poured outta their heart and got sealed in a book, words written to express, yet unspoken….!!!

Saturday 10 December 2011

Little Voice.....!!!


“Deep inside my soul…I heard a little voice…
I tried to ignore it crushing it aside….
But it kept on persisting with a radiant gleam of smile
Making me feel subdued to hear it out aloud….
I still tried to repress it & closed my eyes…
Moments later, I was wide awake….
This little voice held my breath & whispered in my ears….
“Why do you avoid me or turn a deaf ear to????…I am your conscience…
Your heart…Just came to tell you that you have been living a lie….
You have been faking this cheerful smile…which has lost its magic
Why do you do this to you, when you know the truth?Why have you become so numb????
Why don’t you accept the fact that you are not a stone, and have a heart….
That pulsates every second to corroborate the fact that you are still alive
You are still the same, just pretending you are not….
It’s just that you are missing him deep down the core of your heart…!”

I Love You...!!!



When the drops of rain, touch the parched earth & mitigates its thirst,
I feel a craving (longing) in my soul and that is, when I realize I love you….!!!

When a butterfly sits on a flower & feels the jauntiness & warmth of its petals
It makes me feel cozy & I believe that I love you…!!!

When the morning dew beautifies the flowers & grass like an oysteral pearl
I feel you are somewhere close,with feelings more intense, admitting that I love you….!!!

When this emptiness of heart spreads all around like a desolate ocean,
Your memories make me feel you are near, again strengthening the emotion that I love you…!!!

When I walk in a crowd & still feel all alone & your thoughts still play on my mind
I give up to my fighting soul accepting that I love you…..!!!

When at times I keep on prattling & moments later my silence is prolonged
I feel that my heart is into you &  i'am deeper in love with you…..!!!

When I think about you every minute, every hour & miss all your talks in your absence,
I accept that my heart has lost a beautiful battle to you…..!!!

When my eyes often see what is beheld by yours & my emotions are stirred by your thoughts
It leaves no ambiguity that I really love you…..!!!

When I feel, live, talk & breathe you every second of my life
I do not need to ask myself…’coz I already know that I love you…!!!



Without You....!!!




Fighting a knightly war with my feelings, finding it hard to breathe
My heart is racing away like the season of autumn runs when spring sets in place
I feel all alone in the moonlit beautiful night, when you are not by my side     
This barrenness of soul spreads like a desolate ocean…Without You….!!!

These flowers don’t smell nor does their freshness allures
The stars, the moon mean nothing at all
As day gives way to the night, I miss you with my feelings precise 
Momentary and fleeting yet conjures the beautiful times we spent,
That detonates in my memory like poignant landmines, hidden under the weedy mass of years....Without You….!!!

These roads seem very lonely to walk without your hands in my hand
The dawn & the dusk looks alike with my eyes perennially searching for you,
When autumn gives way to spring with the scattered leaves smiling
The flowers bloom and the cruel thorns seem to enjoy a grin,
I still feel my world is all deserted, with numbness galore....Without You…!!!

When I sit alone by the sea, the chilled breeze touches my face
Like always I want it to answer my prayers
To guide me with an answer I yearn and show my life a way
But as I look at the tranquility of the sea, it deepens all the more
And with obstinacy, it doesn’t seem to invoke the same emotions as before…Without You…!!!

If you are not mine, why everything seems so meaningless…
Why does this heart waits for you by holding every breath…
Why does it feels only you are the life among the dead…
My voice, my soul, my thoughts are dying here….
But I believe there is something more…
Just breathe into me and make me real…
Everything’s incomplete Without You….!!!

Sunday 4 December 2011

Don’t slip back – lend a hand….!!!


World AIDS Day is observed on 1st of December every year to raise awareness about the AIDS pandemic caused by the spread of HIV infection and also it is an opportunity for people worldwide to unite in the fight against HIV. It is very important for everyone to learn more about the HIV epidemic, its underlying causes, the crippling stigma & discrimination that lie at the heart of the challenge in tackling this crisis.

Large parts of India remain without adequate monitoring. Access to prevention & care remains inadequate for most people vulnerable to HIV. And why is this? The answer is Stigma, Stigma, and Stigma…!!! Society still treats HIV positive people like dirt - they often loose their jobs, their families, social circles shun them, their children are thrown out of school. This happens in cities like Mumbai too, where we should know better. Aids infected people are always kept aloof from the society as if we castigate them, for being the victim of this deadly virus. They are ostracized from the society. People living with HIV have faced violent attacks, been rejected by families, spouses and communities, been refused medical treatment, and even, in some cases, denied the last rites before they die. How can we become so heartless for the people we once owned, loved & cared about??  Is slipping back the only option?? No instead we need to lend them a helping hand, to make their suffering less painful. Loving such people is not going to transmit the virus to you. It does not spread by embracing, casual kissing, shaking hands, working together, taking bath or swimming together with HIV infected person.

It’s ironic that the health care sector itself is stigmatizing when it comes to HIV. There’s no doubt that India as a whole & cities like Mumbai in particular, have made significant strides in targeting the epidemic from a holistic perspective. We need to spread awareness among people to help curb the reach of Aids. Dissemination of information in the remote parts of India and the most neglected strata of the society that is more vulnerable is of utmost priority. We need to talk about it and educate people instead of thinking that it’s a stigma or lashing at people who make efforts to reach out to the masses to help the cause.

Stalwarts like Bill & Melinda Gates, have done so much to fund crucial global public health projects including Avahan - an initiative to reduce the spread of HIV in IndiaAlso celebrities like Richard Gere , Karan Johar & society doyenne Parmeshwar Godrej (Heroes Project) have stepped forward , to chip away at the ignorance & complacency that pervades our society as a whole regarding HIV. Those who enjoy power & are in a position to engage & influence huge population should do so. It really doesn’t take a huge effort; those in position of power should lend support to such causes and reach out to the masses.

Let’s unite in the efforts to educate people and help the cause let alone doing any world of good to them or limiting ourself to that part of the moral laden society that can only stigmatize or mock at people, only proving & giving a sense of their parochial thinking which stinks.