Sometimes it happens that you pretend to be someone you are not. You try
to wrap your wounds with layers of fake mirth when you are literally dying
inside. You try to put that perfect smile on your face when you fall apart
inside. You embrace the silence of your hollowness with a painful smile. Result
a facade being created and you die ten times more to live up to that facade.
The point is why can’t we just be ourselves, why can’t be express ourselves the
way we want, why can’t we just vent out our emotions when we feel it’s just right?
Why do we leave pieces of our heart here and there and then don’t have almost
enough to stay alive? Ain't we humans? Why can’t we be glad to be human and
have the guts to say that yes ‘we are human and frail and being chosen as one
by god has made a huge difference to our soul?’ We make our soul suffer
greatly, when we force it to live superficially. The soul loves everything
beautiful and deep. Soul is the essence of life, life without it would be
meaningless. Facade is like pieces of broken mirror, no matter how many times
you try to put it up, it will pierce you with an excruciating pain.
I read somewhere that ‘God’ made this world in six days, but what exactly
is the world? World is what you and I see, feel and believe. Whenever someone
dies, a part of this universe dies too. Everything the person felt, experienced
and saw dies with him, like tears in rain. We are a part of this universe, each
of us different and unique and so we ought to live it differently. We are the
masters of our own destiny and soul. The locus of control should always be in
our hands, only then we can create things the way we want.
There are people who are proud of their emotional independence, although
the truth is they are as fragile as any other human being and yet they never
ask for help, they fake it up. They believe in the unwritten rule that says
‘the world is for the strong’ and ‘only the fittest survive’. If that were
true, human beings would never have survived because, as species, we require
care and protection for several years. Remember we never learned to walk alone,
that one finger was always there to hold and walk, those hands were always there
for support when we stumbled and fell down.
If feelings had wings, it could fly high in the sky, if emotions had
words to express itself it would have spoken its heart out, then why do we
humans choke ourselves to the extent that we become numb to pain, why do we
fail to express, to cry, to vent out our emotions??? Respect being god's
beautiful creation. Life is just once! Sometimes it is ok to let your tears be
the voice of your pain, take it out, it won’t make you frail, and you’ll be at
ease. Sometimes it is ok when your thoughts suddenly flow out of your heart,
let it be, don’t stop, you never know you might discover something, you never
knew. Life passes most of us by, while we are busy preparing grand plans for
it. Don’t let others dictate things to you and don’t be afraid of this world,
be who you are. Be happy, don’t put those boundaries around yourself and
pretend to be someone you are not. It’s ok to laugh hard, cry aloud and be
mawkish sometimes, don’t hold your emotions, to be seen as strong by the world.
You are strong already, you need not prove it. So next time don’t fake it or
hold back, crush those inner barriers, break free your heart & soul and be
the real you!
Nice thought, 'If feelings had wings..if emotions had words...'
ReplyDeleteThanks a lot!
ReplyDeletebeautifull..... i my self am dying today i feel..... wearing a fake smile unable to vent my pain out..... cant say the right person the right words.... :(
ReplyDeletehey thnks han... yeah said d person wht i felt.. not the entire thing just 50%, n its aalready feeling great..... but the rest 50% is the toughest..... can never say that!!!! :(
ReplyDeleteu r welcome...see u r feeling gr8 aftr expressing 50%...try 4 d rest 50% also...u'll be relieved completely & vl be at peace...!
ReplyDeleteVery beautifully written..
ReplyDeleteSonika